..."and a highway shall be there, and it shall be called the way of holiness; evil minded people shall not travel on it, but it shall be for those wayfarers who are traveling toward God. (Isaiah 35:8, adapted)



Friday, April 30, 2010

Oswald Chamber on the Uncertainty of Faith

" It has not yet been revealed what we shall be"
 —1 John 3:2


Our natural inclination is to be so precise—trying
always to forecast accurately what will happen next
—that we look upon uncertainty as a bad thing.
We think that we must reach some predetermined
goal, but that is not the nature of the spiritual life.
The nature of the spiritual life is that we are
certain in our uncertainty. Consequently, we
do not put down roots.

Our common sense says, “Well, what if I were
in that circumstance?” We cannot presume to
see ourselves in any circumstance in which we
have never been in.

Certainty is the mark of the commonsense life
—gracious uncertainty is the mark of the spiritual
life. To be certain of God means that we are
uncertain in all our ways, not knowing what
tomorrow may bring. This is generally expressed
with a sigh of sadness, but it should be an
expression of breathless expectation.

We are uncertain of the next step, but we are
certain of God. As soon as we abandon
ourselves to God and do the task He has placed
closest to us, He begins to fill our lives with
surprises. When we become simply a promoter
or a defender of a particular belief, something
within us dies. That is not believing God—it is
only believing our belief about Him.

Jesus said, “. . . unless you . . . become as little
children . . .” (Matthew 18:3 ). The spiritual life
 is the life of a child.

We are not uncertain of God, just uncertain of what
He is going to do next. If our certainty is only in our
 beliefs, we develop a sense of self-righteousness,
become overly critical, and are limited by the view
that our beliefs are complete and settled. But when
we have the right relationship with God, life is full of
spontaneous, joyful uncertainty and expectancy.

Jesus said, “. . . believe also in Me” (John 14:1 ), not,
“Believe certain things about Me”.

Leave everything to Him and it will be gloriously and
graciously uncertain how He will come in—but you can
be certain that He will come. Remain faithful to Him.


From My Utmost for His Highest by Oswald Chambers

Thursday, April 29, 2010




































The saint knows that to find oneself outside of the
 flame of God's love  means annihilation and  death."
--Catherine of Siena

photo taken at Smith College

Friday, April 02, 2010

A Easter Gift for Jesus

'If a man love not his brother that is seen
how can he love God whom he hath
not seen?"

Between ourselves and those about
us there is almost always going on
an open competition, or at least,
a secret comparison.

In that comparison others sink
as we apparently rise. To disparage
a rival is a selfish advantage; and
to selfish natures every neighbor
is a rival! Other people stand in our
way, or we fancy that they do, in
business, reputation, popularity,
etc. By that meaner disposition
that allies us more closely to devils
than angels, we try to drag others
down by uncharitable judgments.

To attack uncharitableness we need
to start with envy and pride! Or the
process may be subtler and
craftier yet. One form of self love
is self-complacency. By passing
severe denunciations on other
men's faults, we compliment the
delicasy of our own moral
discrimination and the keeness
of our sense of right. This is
how Pharisees are made! Three
crimes are committed
in one: we condemn our fellows;
we screen our own sin, we flatter
our own self-esteem.

Another part of uncharitableness is
the pleasurable exercise of unjust power.
Characters are torn to pieces, good
names tarnished, faults are exaggerated,
nor always with obvious gain but for
the sheer joy of seeing the blow take
effect. Men like to expend their
strength and this is what happens.
It is like a cat killing a mouse for sport.

You have seen two uncharitable talkers
in private get together over a drink
and rip someone up one side and down
the other. Then they will each go their
own ways and do the same thing
with someone else but this time
the victim will be the first person
they gossiped, or was that murdered,
with?

Lacking the finer ability to satirize
the failings of systems, they attack
individual men and women. Perhaps
it would be better doing good and
going about God's business than
finding what is the matter with everything.


Third, we must see that the pride
we have in our opinion, and the
impatience and disdain we have
with anyone who disagrees with us
is another monster. God created
us with a certain amount of healthy
diversity. We are not all going to
see it alike. Truth has many sides.


Narrow minds take the colored
refracted rays of God's great
heaven-filling light as insults to
their own vision. Don't argue
over non-essentials! We are
all confused about how far our
loyalty to truth and virture forbids
us to tolerate people who seem
to us to have departed from the
truth. You can see the tremendous
obstacles that beset our growth
in Christian grace.


So how shall we proceed?

First, we must distinguish
between the error itself and
the person who holds the error.
Hating the sin and loving the
sinner it is said, but hating the
sin because it has made someone
its victim is probably better.
But is this just playing around
with words and still making
excuse for ourselves?


We despise and wrong each
other for sheer neglect to
understand each other. Our
natural differences are great
and without Christ, we might
as well count the hope of
overcoming our entrenched
self-focus as impossible.

But do consider this: how
suddenly and completely
many of our most unqualified
condemnations would be silenced
if the whole early history of the
wretchd subject of them could be
laid open to us. Then, instead
of condemning, we would be
thanking God's providence
that those events that caused
such chaos and destruction
had not been dealt out to us.

We must also remember that
even though men do awful things
we do not know how much
more awful their deeds might
have been. Each of us is
fighting a terrible battle.

We are told that charity will
go on where all other exploits
will cease: Tongues, prophecies,
earthly knowledge--all will pass
away, but charity will go on
forever! Hallelujah!


In these days of tender commemoration
of our Lord's loving sorrow let us
multiply our acts of devotion, confirm
our faith, renew our hope. Are we
doing anything to enlarge our
hearts? Empty and profitless
before God will be our prayers if
we harbor enmity, uncharitable
grudges, unforgiving hatred,
and a heart unreconciled to any
child of God.

Why don't you give Jesus a
present this Easter? I think
He would love a heart that
is ready to let go of all this
hateful garbage and be ready
to love. Don't you?


New Helps for a Holy Lent, 1882
Abridged and Adapted


Sunday, March 28, 2010

Palm Sunday

The beginning of Holy Week finds Jesus
in the family of Lazarus. He is a Man and
He knows what lays before Him. From
here on in we are able to follow,
step by step, the unfolding Passion.


He travels south toward Jerusalem
from a retired spot on the borders
of Samaria where He spent several
solitary days in prayer preparing for
all that was to come. He passes
along the wild and dangerous
Jericho Road (where the story
of the Good Samaritan happened)
and comes late on Friday to Bethany
which is about 3 or 4 miles from
Jerusalem. Here he enters the house
of His friends, one of whom He had
raised from the dead a few weeks
before!

There Simon makes a feast for this
Divine Guest, knowing the human well,
but the Divine, not so much. Here
Lazarus sits with the mysterious
experience of the grave, and of
the resurrection, hidden in his heart.
Martha is serving because that is
what Martha does. One of the Mary's
annoints His head for a burial that
awaits Him.

You don't need a fertile imagination
to feel what happened that evening:
a happy group in the shadow of
the Cross, the tender communion,
the thankful remembrance, the pledges
of eternal fidelity too touching to
spoil with words.

The next morning He moves towards
the Temple with its sacrifices, with
the companies of pilgrims, driving
sheep to the altar, One of them
the Lamb of God--the One final,
perfect and sufficient sacrifice.

The Hour is drawing near. He will
enter as a King, a different kind
of King. The donkey is brought;
the crowd grows large. Suddenly
as they raise to the top of the crest
where the City in its historic glory
breaks forth into sight: the familiar
words of prophecy come to pass:

"Tell ye the daughters of Zion, Behold
thy King cometh."

Soon a thousand voices mingle
together: "Hosannah to the Son
of David." But the King is to become
a Sufferer. All our humanity, with
all our moods and conditions is
known to Him, interpreted by Him,
mastered by Him. All the rooms
of the human house are for Him to
inhabit. It is not all one-sided.
He knows all and is with us in all.


The Saviour sighs for us that we may
not sigh forever. Imagine a pretend
Christ who demands our faith chiefly
on the score of His interest in us
when we are happy or brave or good.
How like the world that would be!
How unlike Christ! Without His suffering
Passion He cannot command the
souls of His people. "For it became
Him, for whom are all things, in bringing
many sons to glory, to make the captain
of their salvation perfect through sufferings."


Our truest self emerges more when we
suffer than when things are going well.
When all is well your soul is not proved,
it is not prosperity that refines your soul,
but adversity. Our deepest eternal
choices are born in the dark night
of the soul.

However fortunate your present lot
in life is, do not trust yourself to
Anyone but the Man of Sorrows. His
death is not a mechanical transaction
stamped cooly at a distance for our
sins. Oh not this! His suffering
redeems our own; His life and death
determine our life and death. We
know His crucifixion only as we are
crucified with Him. We will know
resurrection only by abiding in Him.

"So let us bear about the dying of
the Lord Jesus, so that the life
also of Jesus might be manifested
in these mortal bodies
."


"New Helps for a Holy Lent" 1882.
Frederick Huntington, (abridged and adapted)




Thursday, March 25, 2010






















Without Him, what a dreary, lonesome wilderness
would this be! But with Christ in the heart, and the
heart resting in Christ- He in the center of our souls,
and our affections and desires centering on Him- the
desert loses its solitude and its desolateness. To have
the eye resting on Jesus- all our heart-springs in Him-
the spirit in frequent excursions where He dwells in
light and glory- to lean upon Him and converse with
Him as though He were actually walking by our side,
sitting at our table, associating with us in our callings-
this, this is heavenly-mindedness.

--Octavious Winslow

photo taken at Smith College, Northampton, MA

Stop Complaining and Fault-Finding

"Do all things without murmurings"

A subtle snares lays in the sin of
excessive fault-finding.Self-knowledge
is rare, we rarely see our sins and
our shortcomings. But let me tell you
something: complainers make even
less progress in this area.

It is doubtful whether one person
in a hundred of those who are always
looking at the bad side of things,
always pointing fingers, always
trying to pick apart what other
people say will be found to be
in any degree aware at how far
their own hearts lay away from God.

They view themselves as spiritual,
as without major defect, having
a sweet tongue, and think they
are easy to live with. What a joke!

The clever critic has a bitter tongue
and a hard heart. God searches
within and none of this kind of thing
is pleasing to Him. Whatever
happened to "love thinks no evil
but suffers long and is kind?"

Critical people disturb the very
air in a room, they provoke
people to argue, make virtue
difficult, exasperate children,
degrade the testimony of
the Church as a gentle people
given to love. Do we forget
how much mercy Christ has
shown us?

Even if we are trying to be
"good Christians" we can be sadly
unaware at the ceaseless dribble
of ill natured comments and
antagonizing accusations
coming from our tongues.

A school child can be quick
to hurt with hateful, jealous,
unkind remarks. Even a
woman who stays at home
can speak poorly of those
that come to serve her. A mother
can mean well but tear down
rather than build up. She may
expect her children to go
astray and so they do.

If you find yourself caught
in this disastrous bondage
take heed to these four things:

1) One day a week keep a strict
account of EVERYTHING you say.
Ask yourself how much of this is
complaining, and present the sad
score to yourself and to God at
night for reckoning.

2) Dare to ask a trusted friend to
keep you accountable and to
tell you when you start to fall into
bad talk.

3) Count your blessings, they are many.

4) Ask God for strength to make
the changes you need to.

If you follow these four simple
things, you can begin to change
the ugly habits that make you
...well, ugly.


"New Helps for A Holy Lent"
F.D. Huntington
adapted and abridged




Saturday, March 20, 2010




































Oh that I was lowly in heart! Honor and dishonor, good report and
evil report would then be alike, and prove a furtherance to me in my
Christian cause.

—George Whitefield

photo taken at Smith College, Northampton, MA

Thursday, March 18, 2010




































Be inwardly still, Friends, and wait patiently
 upon the revelation of the living flame of love
 that burns in the hidden depths of our hearts.
Place your hope in the purifying, enlightening,
 and liberating working of that Holy Flame,
and rest in that hope, and trust that the secret
life of Christ within us is itself the answer,
ineffable but sure, to the unutterable longing
of our souls.

--George Fox --Letter to Lady Claypole

photo taken at Smith College, Northampton, MA


Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Vision is the art of seeing things invisible.-- Jonathan Swift

photo taken at Smith College, Northampton, MA
"Spring Tulip"

A Burst of Hope




































"Ah, the hope found in a
single bloom of spring."


photo taken at Smith College,
Northampton, MA

Saturday, March 13, 2010

In Patience Possess Your Souls

In patience, possess your souls.


Patience is the endurance of tribulation out
of the love of God, and being willing to see
God in all circumstances. The offices of
patience are as varied as the ills of this life.

We need patience with ourself and with
others; both with our authorities and those
 that we govern, not forget with our own
equals. We need it with those  who love us
and those who do not. We need
it with big things and small things, against
the sudden inroads of trouble, whether it
be from the weather or a broken heart.

We need it when our body is tired and
when our soul is tired, when we have
failed others and others have failed us,
when we are sick and as we get old;
in disappointment, loss, injury, reproach;
when our hopes are delayed and even
we are tired of the ever present struggle
against sin.

All of these things are endured by
patience because we love God and
want to be found to be pleasing to Him.

All other virtues have need of patience
to perfect them. Patience puts herself
between every dart that the Evil One
throws at us. Patience is the root
and guardian of all virtue.

Impatience is like waves troubling a smooth
pond, hindering the perfect image
of Christ from being seen. It makes
the soul either outrun or fall short of
the perfect will of God. Impatience
will not listen, heeds nothing, fears
nothing, hopes nothing, judges nothing
correctly, does not persevere, except
in being restless! It shakes every
virtue and enters into almost every
sin. Impatience made Cain a murderer,
and Absalom a father-killer and
Judas a Christ-killer.

How does impatience shake one's faith
and cause one to be impatient
with the world, the church or one's own
self! It chills love and extinguish's hope.
It blights humility, quenches long suffering,
mars gentleness. Impatience of bodily
wants, leads people into drug, drink,
illicit sex, and leads them to lie,
cheat, and steal.

"In patience," our Lord says, "possess
your souls." What does this mean?
It means to lead all our emotions,
decisions, and needs to the grace of God
so that He can command us.

In the world, when someone is
disciplined and has a clear, steady
commands of things, we call him
"self-possessed." We have need
of that same single-mindedness but
not fueled by human will power but
by the Spirit of God. "It is not by
might nor power, but by My Spirit,"
says the Lord. So let patience
have her perfect work in you
and you shall be found pleasing
in the sight of God.

adapted and abridged from
"New Helps for a Holy Lent"
by Frederick D. Huntington, 1886




















'Prayer does not fit us for the greater works;
prayer is the greater work.
--Charles Spurgeon


photo taken in Garibaldi, Oregon

Wednesday, March 10, 2010













Lord, teach me to listen. The times are
noisy and my ears are weary with the
 thousand raucous sounds which
continuously assault them.

Give me the spirit of the boy Samuel
when he said to Thee, "Speak,
for Thy servant heareth." Let me hear Thee
speaking in my heart. Let me get used to the
 sound of Thy voice, that its tones may be
familiar when the sounds of earth die away
and the only sound will be the music of Thy
 speaking. Amen.

- A. W. Tozer


photo taken in Abergavenny, Wales

Friday, March 05, 2010

Learn to Wait


















In times of uncertainty, wait. Always, if you have any doubt, wait.

Do not force yourself into any action. If you have a restraint in your spirit, wait until all is clear, and do not go against it.

- Anonymous


photo taken in Garibaldi, Oregon
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Planted by the Waters










And he shall be as a tree that is planted by the waters, that spreadeth out its roots towards moisture:
and it shall not fear
when the heat cometh. And the leaf thereof
shall be green, and in the time of drought
 it shall not be solicitous, neither shall it
cease at any time to bring
forth fruit.

--Jeremiah 17:8


photo taken in Garibaldi, Oregon

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

What was feeble you cast away".....

For the Abbot must have the utmost solicitude
and exercise all prudence and diligence
lest he lose any of the sheep entrusted to him.
Let him know that what he has undertaken is
the care of weak souls and not a tyranny over
strong ones; and let him fear the Prophet's warning
through which God says, "What you saw to be fat
you took to yourselves, and what was feeble you cast
away" (Ezek. 34:3,4).


Let him rather imitate the loving example of the Good
Shepherd who left the ninety-nine sheep in the
mountains and went to look for the one sheep that
had gone astray, on whose weakness He had such
compassion that He deigned to place it on His
own sacred shoulders and thus carry it back to
the flock (Luke 15:4-5).

This is from the rule of St. Benedict, the most
well known rules created for Christians living
in community, and as contemporary and sensible
today as it was when it was written 1500 years ago!

It is an increasingly grievious time as those who
call themselves "Christian leaders" move farther
and farther away from the Shepherd-Heart
of Christ. I read these words today and wept
at their truth and wept because they described
more of the current state of the Church then we
want to know.

God had given me this same verse
from Ezekiel last year. It is sobering and heart
wrenching....let us be about our Great Shepherd's
business. Start where you are--shepherd
one, go after one lost one, strengthen the
feeble, feed the lambs....




Saturday, February 20, 2010

What are My Motives?

True faithfulness knows no bounds between
great and small duties....From God's point
of view, nothing is great, nothing small, as
we measure it. The worth and quality of an
action depend on its motive and origin only.
Have I obeyed God in doing it? If it is done
by the Spirit, in faith, it pleases God. If it is
your own will, it is terrible.

You and I have a soul that will live forever,
and I can pour my immortal being into every
deed that I do. Nothing is small that
is born of the Spirit of God within me.

Faithfulness measures our actions as God
measures them. It is not the visible result that
matters but faithfulness. Faithfulness
is faithfulness on whatsoever scale it is set
forth: big or small holy obedience comes from
the same place.

So keep yourself free from the world. Walk
through your day with a perfect heart. Be honest
over the pence as well as the pound. Don't let
anger rise up even for a minute as it will
set you back hours! Do small duties rightly unto
 God. This is a true test of your conversion.


New Helps to a Holy Lent (abridged and adapted)
by Bishop Huntington. 1876, 1882

Looking to Jesus

" We all, with open face beholding as
in a glass, the glory of the Lord, are
changed into the same image, from
glory to glory as by the Spirit of the Lord."...


Let us run with patience the race that is set
before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and
 finisher of our faith."

"Looking to Jesus" is the only way we can completely
deny ourself. All other surrender than that which
is based upon love to Him, and faith in Him, is but
surface work and drives our sinful disease deeper
 into our bones.

The man that tries to wash off the external dirt,
or give up a bad habit, to hammar and tinker himself
into what he thinks a "perfect" man might look like,
 is doomed to fail miserably.

What will he have made of himself? A "whited
sepulchure" outside adorned and handsome
but inside--full of rottenness and dead man's
bones! That which has been whipped into shape
on the outside slinks deeper into the citadel of
the heart, there to fortify its venomous position.

The only answer is to look to Jesus. Put everything
on the altar and tell Him "All is lost without You!
Bring Him what is dark and maimed and broken
and He will give back to you that which is whole
and blessed and beautiful from the inside out.

The hand that is cut off, the eye that is plucked out,
the possessions that are given up, the idols that
are abandoned....from the graveyard of these tainted
offerings a new man emerges, a person made new
in Christ! We cannot change ourselves through
willpower or hope, all we can do is "look to Jesus."

Renew us in our inner parts, O God!
We look to You!

from:
New Hopes for a Holy Lent (abridged and adapted)

Sunday, February 07, 2010















The best rule of friendship is to keep your heart a little softer than your head. ~Author Unknown


photo taken in Abergavenny, Wales

Wednesday, February 03, 2010














The soul which has come into intimate
contact with God in the silence of the
prayer chamber is never out of
conscious touch with the Father;
the heart is always going out to Him in
loving communion, and the moment
the mind is released from the task upon
which it is engaged, it returns as naturally to
God as the bird does to its nest. What a beautiful
conception of prayer we get if we regard it in this light.

- E. M Bounds


photo taken near Abergavenny, Wales